When I reading this post it feels like you are talking about me. The forgetfulness now is even worse, I need to write stuff down. I wait until the last moment to get stuff down, when the urgency (and irritation) crops up from me and loved ones. Lots of things are falling into place
"Maybe I wanted to think myself special when actually I was just an ordinary woman who was just a bit crap". This hit home - the self-doubt, and the assumption of being in the wrong, being mistaken, being 'stupid', other people telling us we’ve "got it all wrong" even though we know, inside, we’re right.
This is a tough one, right? We’ve learned to doubt ourselves for so long it’s hard to challenge that. I think there’s a form of unintentional gas lighting here, from others and to ourselves.
When I reading this post it feels like you are talking about me. The forgetfulness now is even worse, I need to write stuff down. I wait until the last moment to get stuff down, when the urgency (and irritation) crops up from me and loved ones. Lots of things are falling into place
It can be quite discombobulating as things fall into place, Naomi, so go gently with lots of kindness to yourself.
Thank you Gabrielle
"Maybe I wanted to think myself special when actually I was just an ordinary woman who was just a bit crap". This hit home - the self-doubt, and the assumption of being in the wrong, being mistaken, being 'stupid', other people telling us we’ve "got it all wrong" even though we know, inside, we’re right.
This is a tough one, right? We’ve learned to doubt ourselves for so long it’s hard to challenge that. I think there’s a form of unintentional gas lighting here, from others and to ourselves.
Definitely!